If it were possible for a genie to grant me one wish, I know without a doubt what the wish would be. I don’t mean like world peace or the end to all sickness, I mean one personal wish just for me. I would ask for the ability to sleep whenever I wanted. For years I’ve been plagued by insomnia and today, after almost 43 hours without sleep, I have that awful hungover, fuzzy feeling that comes with lack of sleep. I find it very hard to get my mind to switch off and I suppose there are a lot of writers and artists who find this. I’ve tried everything from sleeping pills, that made me feel down the next day and Sunday night I took Valerian, which I was assured would knock out a horse, but neigh, I’m still awake.
My mind sometimes wonders back to my school days and bible teaching. I think of Christ in the garden at Gethsemane and his words to Peter and the sons of Zebedee, “could you men not keep watch with me for one hour?” Perhaps, I am descended from one of these disciples and am now cursed to stand watch forever? It sometimes feels like this.
Sorry to hear this it’s horrible and happens to me sometimes. I am starting to get interested in mindfulness which is a kind of meditative practice . Sunyata Centre http://www.sunayata.org or com near Sixmilebridge has classes which I hope to investigate in the Autumn. I went to the ‘On the nail’ reading in the Lock Bar last night and it was ghastly, so I won’t be going back. If you’re in town give me a ring for lunch on either.
I have decided to try Chinese medicine to try and combat the insomnia. There’s a place in Arthur’s Quay doing it so I’ll go in on Saturday and get some of their pills. I’m not tied to time when it comes to lunch so whenever you want ring me.